Okay I just BARELY noticed that it's Thursday and it's 11:08 pm. This is what happens when you become a busy college student. And I'm not even in real college yet. Yikes.
Well, here's the deal yo. What is with all these people coming here from high school and hanging out with all the people from their high school? Why are people like this? Why is it so hard to get out of your comfort zone?
I'm not saying it's not hard for me, I'm asking this question about myself too.
Today I ate lunch with 6 other people I knew from high school. I wasn't even friends with most of them in high school, but we just naturally kind of mesh together because we have that same background, you know? And we didn't plan on eating together. It just happens. When you are alone at lunch time and you see one face that you at least recognize, you tend to gravitate to it because apparently we humans like to digest with familiar people. It's so lame.
It is unnaturally hard for me to make friends and I have no clue why. I'm not even shy.
In fact, I am outgoing and I like talking to people and I'm not even scared of it, but I just hate being alone and trying to make friends with groups, I guess. I don't know. I'm confused.
Last night I went to a bbq by myself. I couldn't find one single person who looked familiar (besides some guys from high school, and no flippin way) so I left. I could not, no matter how bad I wanted to, force myself to invite myself into a group. Because they are all circled, you know, and it's just not natural to walk up and invite yourself in.
So I left, as I said. But then Henrietta told me (over the phone, of course) to be brave and go back and talk to someone.
So I did.
And guess who I saw. Two of my new roommates who do not have nicknames yet, and I don't have time to give them any right now.
So I hung out with them and it was so fun. They are so cool. But that's the thing. I already knew them. I didn't have to go talk to some random stranger.
Ugh.
What if I don't make friends fast enough and everyone forms their friendship groups and then I will never be able to get in, you know? This is ridiculous!
Anyway, I have noticed that a lot of people are hanging out with all their high school peeps. Like, there will be a group of people and you will ask them where they are from and they will all be from the same place. How lame is that?!
Why?
WHY?!
I always thought sheep were totally stupid and directionless.
Turns out we/I am the same way.
*Just so you know, I just typed all this out without ANY thinking/editing on my part. It's just pure, organic thought whipped out my finger tips on a whim. Take it lightly. Maybe I will be a little deeper later. Don't count on it. Yo.
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